My dog blue(aka according to my aunt "blue balls")

                                       "Don't cry because its over smile because it happened"

Yesterday my dog had to be put down because he had fluid around his heart. The worst part about it was that it happened while I was at work, so I didn't get to say bye. Fortunately I spent the morning before with him, it was weird but something told me I should. Thank God I listened to my instinct. Honestly it sucks, it really does. Although death is inevitable there's no way anyone is ever ready to let go, especially to someone so close to you.
My family and I are dog people, we can't go at least a week without getting another one. Blue however was the one that stayed around the longest. He lived to be 11 years old, and I think that's why I'm not completely crushed. He lived a long happy dog life. We all grew up and old with him. So while he was an old man we were all adults, so he wasn't bothered by a toddler poking at him. Let me tell you he didn't really like kids lol. He also had over 7 people around to feed him and walk him whenever he was ready. Tons of people to sneak him scraps while my father wasn't looking. And so many more to massage him to sleep.
With old age comes new bodily issues. He had a few lumps, which I'm guessing were tumors, and joint problems. So he was suffering. We did all we could, gave him the necessary medicine. But at some point you just have to realize the alternative may be the best choice. There was an optional surgery but no guarantee it would solve the problem. My parents opted out of it, they were suffering as well and would not be able to deal with it going wrong.
I couldn't imagine being in the emergency room at that moment. Or seeing him on the operating table confused and waiting for us..............


......I think that's the worst part, being an animal and never knowing what's truly being said. Having to depend on another species to make a decision that's right for you. If that's not scary enough, imagine all the animals that are abused. It's so sad. Another reason why I'm trying to continue being a vegetarian. Gandhi said something about how you know how good a person is by how well they treat animals.  That quote puts all the crazy cat ladies and dog lovers in a different light. I love having pets. Sadly I don't know when or even if we'll get another family pet anytime soon, Blues death hit my father really hard. But if we do, or when I get one I want to rescue one. Those are the ones who need a loving home the most, but even so any animal deserves a good owner.
How do you all get through the loss of a pet?

he was lovin them socks

Fashion Icon

Girls night!

My girlies and I have some pretty hectic schedules but we've been making an effort to get together more often, especially since one of our lovelies is leaving to pursue a dream. Tonight we all decided to go see that movie The Other Woman. It was hilarious. The perfect chick flick for a Wednesday night at 9:55 pm, as I mentioned crazy schedules. Cameron Diaz and Leslie Mann are the perfect due, they had us cracking up the whole time. Literally. Like I thought we were gunna get kicked out.


This movie brought me to the realization that people tend to confront the mistress rather than the cheater, especially women. Now I completely understand if the mistress has known about you the whole time. But its a completely different story when both women were in the dark about the mans unfaithful ways. I thought it was so cute how these ladies came together despite of it all and put the guilty person in check, the husband. It is definitely easier to blame it on the mistress, because it hurts too much to think about the cheating spouse. But give credit where credit is due, you can't get mad at the person who's not in the relationship, they've really done nothing wrong to you on purpose. But you know who did. Now I'm not saying befriend the other woman, but just cut her some slack. She may be just as confused and hurt as you are. As for the spouse kick I him in the balls and dump his ass!

Nothings better than bumming it out at the movies with tons of snacks to pass around with your friends.

Bloglovin!

Hey ya'll! I'm ready to come out of hiding lol. You can follow me on Bloglovin :) 

<a href="http://www.bloglovin.com/blog/12367733/?claim=a5zqsj4tbfd">Follow my blog with Bloglovin</a>

Thank you, 

💗Monique Tiara

Maleficent (so nice I saw it twice)

Disney has done it again! I started off my Sunday funday with a movie date. My sister and I have been waiting for weeks to see this movie. It was definitely worth the wait. Not to sound cheesy but it's truly a movie "the whole family will love". It has all the cinematic wonders to satisfy the children, with topics adults or anyone of any age could relate to. To give you a little info about the move,  Maleficent is the back story of the evil fairy from The sleeping beauty. The reasoning for the dreaded curse maleficent put on princess aurora. That part was only a small tidbit of the movie. The rest of it was a creative tale about maleficent growing up into this evil fairy everyone feared. You are immediately drawn into the plot. I love how they incorporated her crow, stick, and everything else. Ugh, it was just great. I am trying not to give anything away. But I just want to tell everyone what happened! It was soooooo good! and the reasons behind why she did what she did.

Angelina Jolie is a BOSS! Let me just start off with that. She is amazingly talented. I am so happy she a part of this picture, I do not think it would have been as epic otherwise. There was one specific part where she shows such raw emotion it made me cry. Through her we were able to see a three dimensional villain that is simply misunderstood. I felt sympathy for a character I've always hated.I love when Disney takes one of the originals and switches it up a bit. It's like I saw a whole new story today.

It was just a good day and time to see a movie. It was also so cute seeing all the dads and their daughters, there were so many, and I don't think any of the fathers fell asleep either. I would highly HIGHLY recommend everyone go see it, you wont be disappointed. I walked away learning a few important lessons. The first being how easy it is to lose yourself through revenge and hate. And second true love comes in many different forms, not just between you and your spouse. It could be you and a friend or a family member. These were just a few.


And to top it all off the final song playing during the credits was Once upon a dream by Lana Del Rey. If you know me you would know just how obsessed I am with Lana del Rey. This is one of my favorite Disney songs, sung by my favorite artist, the perfect present to my ears. Listen for yourself and try not to fall in love.

I had to call for back up

 "The most important break up rule of all, you won't get through it without your friends"-Carrie Bradshaw, sex and the city


Some where over the rainbow I sit in my bed typing about away feeling like a whole new woman. I can finally say I am officially over my break up. I am 100 percent fine with being alone and I LIKE being alone. I'm am always trying to make time to sit in a café for at least an hour and read. I've been in the process of remodeling my room and my vision board. But most importantly I have had nothing but free time for my friends. With help from them I have finally arrived to my happy place. It was not at all easy. This past weekend I had a complete melt down, and my best friend literally scolded me back into reality. I was so taken aback because my girl is not one to lose her temper, but she was sick of my low self esteem and constant need of reassurance from guys. She doesn't completely realize it but that was the best thing she could have done for me. I don't want friends who beat around the bush, I'd rather they tell it like it is and call me out on my bs.
After that night something just came over me and I regained my confidence in that bathroom. I think it was the crying. I've never cried in front of my friends. Weird I know, but I like to keep my emotions in check, now I know what a big mistake that was. I feel like that was another thing that brought me closer to my girlie. I literally cried on her shoulder, yes the ugly messy cry, and it felt amazing. I feel like I have that support system I lost with my break up. That night reminded me that I will always have people who truly care for me.
I'm sure you all can relate. If your a guarded person like me, just remember weather you realize it or not you are never truly alone. You have more than one person who care about you. You just have to open up let them in. Or cry hysterically on their should, whatever's appropriate at the moment.

every brunette needs a blonde

Team light skinned!!

Since I can remember I have been infatuated with Leonardo DiCaprio and Jim Carey. Whenever I watch a TV show I am more attracted to the preppy white guys. But when I'm actually face to face with a hunky Caucasian I don't feel that spark, and I tend to gravitate towards the the light skinned black guys. To give you  a good visual, he would look similar to Drake.

Loved Aubrey before he was "Drake"

His smile melts my...heart :x

last night after meeting a friend of a friend, a tall light skinned guy with an adorable face I knew. I knew I had a type. Thinking about it now he resembled Drake a liiiiiiitle bit. Now forgive me if this post sounds a tad racist, it's totally not. And I am Native American and Irish, black and white, so I have permission to speak openly about this topic without offending anyone lol. So like I was saying  I don't know why but I just don't "click" with white guys, and believe me I've tried. It's easy befriending them but once they start to flirt something inside me just freezes up. I don't know what to talk about anymore. I start to not like their cologne for some reason, and I avoid them. Then when I see them again I try to hook them up with my friends.

So, coming to said conclusion I'm trying to embrase this realization. What type of guy do I want. I like black guys yes, however I do not like a thug or 'ghetto" guy. So when I meet a white guy who resembles Eminem I am completely turned off. My ex was a darker black guy, yes black he would say himself, but he spoke very well and loves musical theater songs among other untypical "black things".  I like a guy who is somewhat established and has goals. They also have to have a sense of humor, but who isn't looking for that.

Michael B. Jordan is already hot, but we all know just how much more sexy humor makes a man

I'm still trying to figure it out, and being a newly single woman I have time.But  I don't know I just can't picture myself marrying a white guy. Now that I've admitted it, I'll leave all that white chocolate goodness for you ladies. If you see anyone who resembles these guys hook a sistah up!!

Michael Ealy has an unfair advantage with those eyes. Then he takes off his shirt
GAME OVER!

Trey Songs sang at my prom and yes it's possible to look better in person.

Family member a.k.a Designated friends

It's funny how some family members can be complete strangers. I can't stand family reunions for that exact reason. Your expected to hang out with people you haven't seen in years, and sometimes people you would never chose to hang out with other wise. Trying to figure out what to talk about when some guy comes walking over asking the million dollar question "You remember me, I remember when you used to be this (insert hand measurement here) small". Ugh NO, don't embarrass us both please.
But it's sad when someone you used to be so close with becomes that distant cousin. Me my cousin and my sister used to be inseparable when we were younger. She got on my nerves I must admit, but I loved her regardless and we had tons of fun together. But when we got old age separated us, and her and my sister who are the same age hung out more. I was stuck in the mommy role in their eyes and they've kept a lot of stuff from me, it was weird.
Today we had a heart to heart though by admitting similar problems we have in our lives, both going through annoying "breaks" with our boyfriends and tons of stuff just came gushing out, and it was like how it used to be. FINALLY! I'm so happy I missed her, and to think it was that easy to let your guard down.
But then it's always like that with family. Your family members are the only ones in life who have to love you no matter what, and most of the time they want to lol. Your going to be with them forever, their the ones who will stick around no matter what. It's important to know who your related to, but really know them. They have your back always, and a lot of good memories to be made with. So  spend that time getting to know them, their worth it ;)


Love ya'll,
Monique Tiara
.

Autimojazz <3