Some where over the rainbow I sit in my bed typing about away feeling like a whole new woman. I can finally say I am officially over my break up. I am 100 percent fine with being alone and I LIKE being alone. I'm am always trying to make time to sit in a café for at least an hour and read. I've been in the process of remodeling my room and my vision board. But most importantly I have had nothing but free time for my friends. With help from them I have finally arrived to my happy place. It was not at all easy. This past weekend I had a complete melt down, and my best friend literally scolded me back into reality. I was so taken aback because my girl is not one to lose her temper, but she was sick of my low self esteem and constant need of reassurance from guys. She doesn't completely realize it but that was the best thing she could have done for me. I don't want friends who beat around the bush, I'd rather they tell it like it is and call me out on my bs.
After that night something just came over me and I regained my confidence in that bathroom. I think it was the crying. I've never cried in front of my friends. Weird I know, but I like to keep my emotions in check, now I know what a big mistake that was. I feel like that was another thing that brought me closer to my girlie. I literally cried on her shoulder, yes the ugly messy cry, and it felt amazing. I feel like I have that support system I lost with my break up. That night reminded me that I will always have people who truly care for me.
I'm sure you all can relate. If your a guarded person like me, just remember weather you realize it or not you are never truly alone. You have more than one person who care about you. You just have to open up let them in. Or cry hysterically on their should, whatever's appropriate at the moment.
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