"Losing you was like losing a tooth, I feel the hole where it once was
but I got used to it"
Those were the saddest words I've ever read in my life, and I just couldn't understand how it was so easy for my ex-best friend to dismiss our friendship so well. Ehh well I mean shit went down and I take full responsibility but I had always hoped things would come around, like it just had to happen. But unfortunately it didn't, and looking back at the situation now I can say things worked out the way they needed too. It wasn't entirely healthy for us to hold on to our friendship. Now I find that same quote running through my mind a lot these days, because my boyfriend and I are currently on a break. In the beginning I was a complete and utter mess. I couldn't listen to any type of song, sad or happy. I didn't want to tell any one because I didn't want it to be real. I was miserable for a week, until I finally told a friend about it, and it was such a relief. She advised to keep myself busy, to get my mind off of it. Recipe for success, I've come to love my space, being alone to do whatever I want. Leaving the light on at night to read without worrying about keeping my boyfriend up all night. Don't get me wrong, we did not break up on bad terms, and he was an amazing boyfriend, but it was his choice for the break up. It's hard being the dumpy as opposed to the dumper, I didn't know how to deal. But like every other problem we have, it eventually passes. And like losing a tooth you get used to it's absence, and then fill the hole with something better. What do you guys do after an awful break up, I'm still not entirely fixed,ha.
Love ya'll,
Monique Tiara
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